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Sunday, 15 May 2011

200?! I gained 5 lbs in less than a week. On both scales. WTF? I ate bad, but not THAT bad.

Edit: It may be my period, that would explain this why I feel so out of control about food and cravings and some of the weight gain (water). Since I'm not breast feeding, it is possible that I'm having a period after only 4 weeks. The main reason this is my theory is because I'm having cramps. It could just be my uterus going back to

6 weeks from giving birth isn't until the 25th. I don't really think there's a reason why I couldn't work out before that, except that my doctor told me to wait and she's young, so it's not like her ideas are too outdated? I will stick with walking until then. I've been burning close to 2000 calories a day without walking a huge amount which would be a 1000 calorie deficit if I eat 1000 calories a day. If I can walk around 10K steps, I could probably be burning close to 3000 calories and lose maybe 3 lbs a week? If I could keep that up and then do something like 30 Day Shred on top, I think I'd start dropping weight fairly quickly. 3 lbs a week is outside the realm of "healthy weightloss," but it wouldn't be for too long. I really want to be out of the 190's by the end of the month! I haven't seen the 180's in so long, it would give me such a huge boost. The 170's and 160's are really going to be exciting. My goal for now is 155 or so because I was around a size 10 when I weighed that and I felt pretty good about myself. My ultimate goal is 125, but the lowest I've weighed is 143, so I won't beat myself if I can't get past there, but I would love to know what it's like to truly be thin. I want to feel healthy, though... I was really cute at 150, but I always felt disgusting and I didn't really look that bad.

Saturday, 14 May 2011

Eating everything aaaargh. I felt so motivated, but even then I couldn't stop myself from eating everything.

If I lost 2 lbs a week, I could be in the 160's by Sept. I'm really banking on those apple cider vinegar pills working.

Friday, 13 May 2011

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Oi... most of my day is spent sitting. I need to change this. Yesterday was a big fat fail, but I need to start getting out with the baby.

I ordered the apple cider vinegar pills. Hopefully that helps with my appetite! For the time being I may start drinking a little more coffee since that's an appetite suppressant.

I'm loving the body media calorie counter! I love that it tells me how much sleep I'm getting also since that's hard to keep track of when I have to get up every couple hours to change and feed Owen. I got around 5 hours last night, so I should nap today to get closer to 8 hours, but it said my sleep was really efficient.

Thursday, 12 May 2011

Last night around 3:30am I did something stupid and made myself a bowl of cereal when I got up to feed the baby. Stupid! I'm so glad I'm doing weight watchers. It's keeping me accountable and because they made a lot of fruits and veggies 0 points, I'm going to be eating a lot more of those and hopefully less of everything else. Ryan wants to have tacos for dinner. Usually, I load up on sour cream and cheese, but that's why I'm fat, so this will be an exercise in restraint (or I'll end up using those extra points they give you).

I can't believe how fat and flabby my arms are. I'm over 60 lbs overweight, so I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. I really need to keep up with this! I've been doing arm exercises, but they're not going to do anything if I don't lose this fat.

I'm going to post my body media info every day. Today is going to be my first full day of wearing it, so it'll be interesting. Another form of motivation (and this ties into the arm thing) is that the arm band doesn't fit well. I'm not sure what people who are bigger than me do (I guess buy the bigger one?), but the one that came with it is almost too small for me. I wouldn't say it digs into my arm, but my arm is so flabby that it indents quite a bit where the band is and I can't make it any bigger. It's upsetting. My arms are huge. Hopefully, picking the baby up and holding him ends up helping a bit, I'm noticing him getting heavier.

I know I said I was going to weigh myself everyday, but maybe I shouldn't. I weighed myself today and 195.4. I don't think I could have gained a full lb since yesterday, so I feel silly even mentioning it, but I was hoping I'd show something of a loss for motivation's sake. I know I will definitely lose by the end of the week, so I will wait until next Weds to weigh in again and see how that goes.

My legs are definitely smaller than they were pre-pregnancy. These jeans that barely fit my legs fit really well now... of course, I can't button them. I mean, I can, but my giant squishy belly overflows over.

The pediatrician said after 3 and before 10 were the best times to take the baby out, so I think I'll start leaving with Ryan in the morning since there are a lot of crossing guards out at the more dangerous intersections and I'm sure there are at 3pm also for kids leaving school. Then, we can go out again when Ryan gets home. Owen's sleeping now, so I'll wait until he wakes up, change him, feed him and take him out for a walk. If there aren't crossing guards, I'll just walk up and down my street. I need to start getting out with him!!!!! I desperately need the exercise. Until Owen wakes up, I'll clean the house a little bit and log some steps that way.

Today was a total fail as far as food goes. Total fail. Tomorrow will be better. I just want to eat everything. I'm going to order those apple cider pills now. Hopefully they make this easier.
I want to start walking every day, but it's difficult. My husband and I recently moved to Jersey City and I'm not 100% comfortable here yet. Although, we were walking to Dunkin Donuts last night and I saw some guy laying in a driveway. I pointed him out to Ryan and Ryan went over and asked him if he was okay. He said he was, but he couldn't get up. Ryan was like, "You've been drinking." "No, no drinking, papi!" The guy was totally wasted... he was like 5' tall, but Ryan couldn't get him on his feet and this guy walking by actually stopped to help! Never would have happened in NY. Another guy called someone for directions for us. Once the guy was on his feet, he said he could make it home, but he was so wasted I was afraid he'd get him by a car or end up laying on the ground again, so we went after him and walked him home. I have no idea how he ended up where he was (he didn't either), but it was a good half mile walk (not a lot for us, but a lot for a guy who couldn't walk 3 steps without having to steady himself on whatever was handy) and we didn't have any problems... I think it's a pretty safe area. If I stuck to my block anyway, I could definitely walk around at night. I just hate crossing the street here. So dangerous!

I don't want to try to add too many things since I'm already trying to adjust the diet, but maybe I'll go for a short walk tomorrow. I should try to get out every day anyway since I could basically go a week without going anywhere. Going outside doesn't even cause me anxiety anymore, I'm just so used to it that I don't think about it anymore. That has to change. There's a big park relatively close by. It's not the nicest, but there's a track-like thing I could walk on and it's not an actual track, so I think I could walk with the stroller.

I'm so excited about my new scale! It said I weighed 194.2 earlier. .2! It's awesome that it's so specific, it'll be great to actually see how much weight I've lost on a daily basis. One thing I'm not going to try to do is avoid the scale. It keeps me motivated... even if I get a little crazy about it- as long as I'm not restricting, then I don't see the harm.

Thinking about getting these because the reviews are really good: